April 19, 2005

Experiment Update

Day 11 of trying to act and interact like a confident girl. It's going...okay. It's really easy to forget to do it. Plus...once you have certain dynamics in place with people, it's kind of hard to change them. Once you're used to interacting with certain people certain ways, to change that is like completely rewriting the rules --- and entails changing how the other person sees you.

On Saturday, I gave a vocal performance for the first time: I sang at a Christian conference that was held at my church. Yikes. I was so nervous --- and I didn't hit every note. I was so mad about that. I had wanted it to go absolutely perfectly. So, anyway. I think I'm going to have to change my attitude about perfection and self-expression and allowing God to use self-expression to minister to other people.

That sounds like a lot to think about. Maybe I'll just drink some tea and watch a "Full House" rerun instead.

Posted by jessica at April 19, 2005 09:29 PM