In this way he may grew exceedingly prosperous and came to own large flocks, and maidservants and menservants, and camels and donkeys. Genesis 30:43
There aren't many redeeming things to say about Jacob when he lived in Haran. In my opinion, he went from bad to worse. By day he manipulated his father-in-law's flocks to increase his wages, and by night he allowed himself to be used as a mere breeder in a game of manipulation between Rachel and Leah.
Some might say that he had it made. He could sleep with any of four wives each night, and he grew richer each day. But what kind of man was he? How much did Jacob's prosperity truly cost him? It is truly amazing to me that from a family this dysfunctional came the great nation of Israel. What a mess!
Lord, I sense that You want me to ask for the redemption of my own dysfunctional family. But I don't know if I want the responsibility that come with it. It has been too easy to simply walk away. I don't know if I even like them enough to deal with them.
Soften my heart, so I might become prosperous by Your hand and not my own.