All these are the twelve tribes of Israel, and this is what their father said to them when he blessed them, giving each the blessing appropriate to him. Genesis 49:28
To receive an appropriate blessing is not necessarily something I want. Jacob blessed each of his sons, but as the blessings are given, some aren't very pleasant. They contain reminders of adultery, murder, and greed. At the end of his life, Jacob remembered things that I'm sure his sons wished he had forgotten.
There are things in my life I would rather forget. But they are there nonetheless. Will I someday be remembered for the beds I have defiled - for the cities I have plundered?
Lord, I beg for mercy. I know Your saving grace, yet there are times I still feel unworthy; I feel wretched as I remember where I have been. The enemy wants me to remember these things only, so he can hold me down. Pick me up from the bottom, Lord. Honor me, so You might be honored all the more.
When others think of me someday, let them remember You.